Chaos indoors and out
though surfaces are cleaned –
the sink bench, the garden leaves
raked, and only one or two besmear
the endless efforts of staying here.
‘I enjoy breathing’ an aged rock star
says and hushed reverent applause.
Why didn’t we think of that, make
a song out of it and a dance?
But on your dresser, a cleared space
allows the large dolls’ house to poise
now you’ve assembled it, with screws
and instructions. The hinged front
complete with comprehensive door
opens out onto the stage you’ve chosen
to create, detail by detail, this winter.
Your double bed, single-occupied, lies
behind, slightly-rumpled, with cushions
at the head, a stuffed toy or two
but the dolls’ house’s rooms are empty
and pristine as only emptiness can do.
Hell is other dolls, J-P Sartre said
and if you want to keep a situation clear
banish every living soul, let furniture
speak for itself and occupancy as well.
For someone – doll size – is surely coming here
tonight or after a fabled holiday
to proceed up the stairs to bed
or rest, feet or a footstool, in the drawing room.
And the miracle is, several at once
partake of the elegance, the form
you’ve set for them. The little table
with beautifully-folded tiny napkins
the wingback chair for someone male
the antimacassars for a greasy head
the nursery where the toys are stored
as light fades in the little panes
the kitchen where a gentle reprimand
may occur until stirring starts again.
Instead, in front of it with you, quite
overwhelmed by its beauty and order, its grace
assembled out of scraps and rags
and transformed to a living stage, I breathe
if only I were small enough, were small.