The Castle Of Pain

Brick
        By
             Brick

 With a lot of effort and care,
 I have built a mystical castle,
 A shelter from hatred and dare.


  A place where I could find
 Some rest of mind.
 Warmth love and peace
 Live peacefully at ease.


   A place, where I could
   Turn over a new leaf,    
   Escape from this world
    Of  ‘make belief,”


By…

Burying all the shame
Forgetting all the pain,
Killing the hunger
For money, power and fame.



However…

When I closed the door
To shelter myself there,
This spiritual atmosphere changed
 Into something I could not bare.


Death and mould
Covered all the walls,
Broken glass scattered
On all the tainted floors.


They must have fallen
From the picture frames,
Too much of a load
For their rusty nails.


Gangs of spiders gathered in corners
Innocent insects were their prey,
Their fragile bodies were devoured
Too weak to get away.


Their frustrating expressions
 So clear on their faces:
“What have we done to deserve this?
Why is life full of chases?”


I felt lonely,
I felt bad,
All this emptiness around me
Made me feel much more sad.


I searched for some light,
I searched for some hope,
In this great darkness,
I just could not cope.

          

The doors transformed
Into old prison bars,
No chance for escaping
Even if there were no guards.


The key was transforming
Into a vicious snake,
My blood turned cold,
 My life was at stake.


Numb with dying fears,
Stony eyes with frozen tears,
Caught up in a cave of despair,
A terrible anguish I could not bare.

The music,
Yearning like a child in pain,
Haunted the castle,
With an air of disdain.


I felt nervous,
I felt tense,
The air was choking me,
It was getting too dense.


My dream castle,
Turned into a nasty web,
I was losing my freedom,
I felt caught in a trap.


Striving for death to save me,
From this dismal castle of pain,
When once and for all free myself
From an old rusty chain.


Fly away
To that mysterious place,
Where the evil' spirit
Will loose its trace.


Release myself
From this damp soul,
Scrub myself
From this leachy coal.


Gaze at the mirror
And the reflection will be,   
One of peacefulness
And spirituality.



Lost in these faraway thoughts,
I was suddenly struck by a flash of light,
A supernatural atmosphere
Took away my plight.
          

The blood and broken glass vanished
Beautiful flowers were everywhere,
They danced, showing their colorful petals,
A harmonious feeling caressed the air.


The help I desperately needed
Came to me with a melodic tune,
It sang comfort and love,
Warmed me with the sun of June.




A kind of change came in my fate,
I felt lighter, I felt free.
Life took a different perception,
 I had found the lost key.


A loud and deep voice startled me,
 Was I becoming insane?
My heart was beating faster,
A sensation I could not explain.


It said: “Be of good hope
And you shall live,
Do not be afraid
If love you give.


If you trust in ME
And start to believe,
All the warmth you are lacking,
You will receive.


Take off the dark shades,
Search for the light,
I will give you strength
To your endless fight.



Never feel lonely,
Never feel sad,
Remember that I
Will always be there.





I have the medicine
To your feeble soul,
Change your attitude,
Take a new role.


Open your eyes
Leave this empty dark cave,
 Love and believe in yourself
And you will be saved.


Not all that glitters is gold
So do not be deceived,
Read between the lines,
You will be relieved


This holy hour came
To take away my grieve,
This spiritual security,
Made me feel innocent and naïve.


I felt free
From the mortal trait,
This voice inspired me
To regain my lost fate.



I still need to be
Strong to survive,
But at least now I am happy,
I am alive.